Hi! My name is Dayna, I'm 29 yr old pre op mtf. I used to have a journal but lost the password to my old email, so cannot retrieve it :( So, Alot has went on. see deadjournal.com/users/tsprincessdana (for my ld entries that maybe arent private >.<).....sooo, I decided after some deliberation to make a new journal to document my transition. For those not in the know, I plan on keeping this a little private, but am open to new friends. Alot has changed from the age of 26 to 30- and alot hasnt. This gender dysphoria never went away and was always rearing its ugly head as I tried to.

My fiancee of five years has always known since we were kids (since 13, we turn 30 this year), and she says its been obvious I've been suppressing myself. (apparently my feminine nature rears her head alot when im not trying to act male). After a long talk with an old old friend, and then the wife, I just decided "fuck it, I gotta be me before its too late to", and sometimes, I feel like its too late to do so :(

Ya, I'd have years where I'd live female/ the try (ya try) to live male. and I cant pretend the woman I am isnt real, isnt me. And its just time to tackle my insecurities and realize I should have done this a long long long time ago. So, I talked with my Primary Care Dr. on how I've been diagnosed Gender Dysphoric by multiple counsilors/therapists growing up and he wrote me a letter for "hormone therapy" to an Endo. My question is, in Michigan, is that the document I need for full time HRT?

Further more I've been self medicating with Estradiol Valerate daily (pill form). I know its dangers, and I wont post the dosage, but its not high at all. I've self medicated on and off in the past, so i know the risks, and what to look for, and as it stands, I have one month till my appt with the Endo. If anyone lives downriver in michigan and knows any trans-friendly Endos, speak up! This guy was listed on the transgendered yellow pages but other then that, I know nothing about them :/ I just want to be fully under the care of somone, so I know I'm doing the right thing in those regards.

Anyhow, jsut wanted to say hi :)

I just wanted to re-share this story I wrote in 2009 regarding my/our safety and being trans* in this world: http://aubreycolors.livejournal.com/762124.html

Hi there!
Im Alex from The Levamentum Project, and Im here to tell you about our Project! TLP is an organization dedicated to helping transgender youth. One of the ways that we do that is by selling low cost transition essentials on our online store. We sell just about every type of transition good you can imagine, and if for some reason we don’t carry it, just let us know and we may be able to get it for you. We offer an assortment of products including:
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A web search turned up conflicting answers, so I now turn here ... Does spironalactone cause less testosterone to be produced in the body, or does it prevent cells from responding to testosterone that's still there (i.e. bind to testosterone-receptor sites so the testosterone can't)?

Or to put it another way: while I know that spironalactone reduces the effects of testosterone, will a blood test actually show less testosterone present, or will a test show the same or higher amounts of testosterone that's just no longer doing anything?

[xposted by hand to DW]

Hey guys! i just wanted to let you all know that i am receiving a prosthetic from both lolajake and emisil and i will be doing a full text and video review for them. It will be a 3 part review for the both of them
Part1- First impressions.
Part2- After one week of wear, all the goods and bads of the product. How it functions, looks, smells, feels, etc.
Part 3- After having the prosthetic for about 3-4 weeks i will talk about how it seems to hold up for long term wear.

Also, the lolajake review will be followed by a giveaway/contest of one of their products.

The details of which prosthetics i will be receiving are unknown at this time. I will be recieving both prosthetics in about 2-3 weeks.
Updates about all of these and about the reviews and giveaway can be found on my review blog http://toysfortransmen.tumblr.com (NSFW- occasional pictures of genital prosthetics and adult toys)

If you guys have any questions about these two proshtetics, you can post them here, or submit an ask on my blog and i will answer them in my review. (i may just havea  whole separate Q &A section if i cant make the answer flow smooth in the review)

Hi there! Alex here from The Levamentum Project.
I just wanted to let you all know of our new insanely cheap  silicone packers and pack n plays that can be used with medical adhesive or a harness. I know that most packers like this run at least $80 (realmagick quote) most o them though are in the 100s. And it is nearly impossible to ind a pack n play  like this for under $500.
Well here at TLP we offer packers and pack and plays running at $25/$35 depending on your model. These are hand sculpted 100% silicone prosthetics that can be used with medical adhesive, or with your favorite harness.
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Hi everyone,

I didn't see anything against this in the rules, but if it's out of line, feel free to remove it, mods!

My friend is a senior at the University of Montana and is doing her thesis on the experiences of LGBTIQ youth, and she’s struggling to get interviews!

She’s compensating all of her participants for their donation of only 45 minutes to her research.

The criteria are simple:

• identify as LGBTIQ or other gender or sexual minority


• be out to your immediate family


• be between the ages of 14 and 24


• MUST HAVE EXPERIENCED HOMELESSNESS BETWEEN THE AGES OF 14 AND 24

This is really important research, so it would be really great if you would help her out by contacting her if you qualify and spreading this around so she can reach as many people as possible.

You can get ahold of her at: 2013lgbtprojectmissoula @ gmail . com

Hi all,
I’ve been putting this off for quite some time, and I’m no good at this sort of thing so I hope the random mess will be understandable. ^^;;

I’m Amy, and I was born with the wrong body T_T (mtf). It has been making me depressed for quite some time…

Relatively few people know about this. Only my friends (all overseas), a few people in the local uni anime club (ANUAGS) and most of the other people who run Manifest (largest anime con in Australia) – although many of them still insist on using the wrong name and pronouns.

I have been dropping hints to my family for almost 20 years. They have seemingly failed to pick up on them and they don’t appear to listen any time I tell them anything else important.
Every time my brother sees me, he calls me “brother”, and every time he does, I tell him not to (have been getting rather vocal and upset about it the last several times). He persists.
My sister was “disturbed” (and that’s putting it mildly) when she saw my Necomimi ears and saying that they “shattered her image of me”. She has reacted as though disgusted both times she has seen me with them. I can only imagine what she’d say if she learnt about the whole transgender thing. :/

I’ve been using my preferred name socially for close to 8 years, but my documents list the ‘bad’ name.
Most of my mail (from friends and mail order packages) is addressed to my preferred name. My parents comment on it each time they see it. “Official” mail (from banks, government departments, etc) still lists the other name. At the moment, their reaction to the name on my mail appears to be one of confusion, but with the way they react to other things, they are likely to respond negatively if/when I start getting official mail in that name.

My family already thinks I’m nuts because I like anime and don’t have any interest in sport. Things are sure to explode if they found out about my having the wrong body. I have no idea how to approach them about it directly anyway.

As for work… While there are official policies there against harassment etc (at least on paper – transgender is expressly mentioned alongside race, religion etc), with the people at work, I’m not sure they would actually pay attention to those policies.
There is someone at work whose father is now his “second mother” (ie, mtf) and whenever the topic comes up he, and others, find the entire idea something to laugh about.
A previous store manager appeared likely to work it out even without me saying it directly, but he was only there for 5 months and I was on holiday for a good part of that time.

I haven’t seen anyone about this medically. The family doctor is quite close to my family, having gone to high school with my father and being my sisters god-father. I’m not sure I want to discuss this with someone with that history and preconceived notions about who I am. I haven’t been able to find anyone else that work hours and/or transport issues don’t rule out.


I have been intending to get my name “legally” changed and have been waiting until my passport and other ID started expiring. My passport is valid to Fed 2015, so would have to look at getting a new one around mid next year (many places want min 6 months validity on passports), but the first ID expires in a few months. I have the necessary forms required for both name change and gender adjustment. Currently the only idea I have to approach the matter with my family is to print out the forms and then leave them sitting on the printer, which is networked and attached to my mothers PC… :/

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I am wondering if anyone in the USA has tried testosterone pellets? Someone at the clinic I get my shots at said they didn't know if one could get them done in the States. I looked around online and there's FDA info about them and nothing that says they are NOT approved??? I'm not in a huge rush to try them, BUT I do think that these would be the best option for me, regardless of cost, provided I don't have a massive reaction to the dang things. Do you have to find a specific kind of Doctor to implant them? I live in the middle of nowhere in Norther Cali, but I travel to Sacramento regularly and wouldn't mind needing to travel a couple times a year for treatment.


Also, I wanted to know about birth certificates. If you change your BC, are you required to inform your employers? I'm not out and work and have no immediate plans to be, so it isn't like it's a rush, I'm just curious how many hoops I need to plan on jumping through. :/

So, last night's adventures went really well. I got the chance to reconnect with a couple old friends from college who I haven't seen in years. It was a wonderful night in general.

Hi kids!

TW: misgendering, cisexism, transphobia.

Be sure to prepare a bucket to vomit in after reading this disgrace of an article.

http://articles.latimes.com/2013/feb/04/local/la-me-western-bandit-20130204

You might want to email the author, Sam Quinones at: sam.quinones@latimes.com Be sure to CC the email to the ombudsman at readers.representative@latimes.com and the Local/California Editor at ashley.dunn@latimes.com

You can make liberal use of their own ethical standards at http://latimesblogs.latimes.com/read...uidelines.html

Hi,

Just a rant. Well, I realized that I actually like men too after T. So I would randomly post to craigslist for casual hook up. And I have one email yesterday:

Why u changed from female to male if you like men !

So I answered:

This is the most stupid question I have ever seen. Female changes to man because he thought he is trapped in a female body. So a correction is needed. But he also thinks he is gay. If your theory works, every gay man should change their gender to female and lesbo should have sex change too. How stupid you are!

so he answered:
Oh your brain works lol


p.s. WAS I WRONG? HOLY Sxxt...

Hi,

I know it has been a while...hm...I think I could use some help here from my best friends! I started T for almost 3 years. I do not have many facial hair but the body hair is a bit more than average Asian. I found that my head hair is getting very very thin (I used to have very very thick hair) and I am VERY VERY worried. I used 5% minoxidil solution for almost 3 months..and I still don't see anything....

PLEASE HELP!
FYI, the thinning started last FEB, I have my hysto last Sept.

Thanks!!!! MANY THANKS!

So here's what may be a stupid question. I've been reading, thinking, day dreaming, etc about transitioning for years and now I'm actually wanting to take steps towards transitioning. How do i actually get started on hormones? Just call up an endocrinologist and make an appointment?

Due to an insurance snafu I cannot get estrogen refilled, and I am not sure how long I will have to wait to do so. (I cannot afford to pay out of pocket.) I have been experiencing irritability, fatigue, nausea, and headaches, and of course it is really depressing to think that all the estrogen-induced changes are slowly being undone.

Does anyone have any advice on what I can do to take the edge off until this situation is resolved?

Hello everyone! My name's Brooke, and I am a young trans* woman living in SoCal! Some of the things I like to do include playing bass guitar and going shopping^_^. I hope to make lots of friends here as I am totally new to LJ. Hope you all have an awesome day!
~Brooke

Originally posted by jesseam at I Love My Trans - Anti-Transphobia Project

Hi Everybody,

I would like to thank everybody who participates in this community. Over the past few years you have supported me, answered questions, and made me feel like I am a part of a great community. You've been an integral part of my transition.

Recently I was inspired to start a project called "I Love My Trans" and was wondering if anyone would like to help spread the word and support the project/Trans Community.

( Information about I Love My TransCollapse )

Thanks for your support!
Elliott

I am at the point in my life that I am ready to begin my journey to telling my mother that I am gay.  I am not going to spring the TG issues on her yet, I just want to be open with her about my sexuality.  It has been 7 years since I have been with a woman and I know she is fully aware of that, but she doesn't know a thing about me being with men.  I am not going to dive into the personal stuff at all.  If she asks, I will tell her what I think she needs to know and that is it. 

Why I am writing here is.... How should I approach my mom? How have others done it?  What were some of the reactions?  What should I look for or expect?  I feel like an idiot. I am a grown person and mom/dad (single parent for the last 16 years) to a wonderful honor roll college student and I can't seem to find the 'right way' to approach my own mother.

It feels like a slow grind, trying over time to get friends and family accustomed to using the correct pronouns. One of the things that I find interesting is the fact that some people seem so much naturally better at it than others. As a rather sweeping generalisation, my girl friends tend to be far, far better than my male friends at it, but there's far more to it than that. I'd say it's harder for people who've known me longer, but there, too, there are outliers that have known me my whole life, but shifted quite nicely. Then there are people that used to be so promising with it, but are regressing... I guess it's silly trying to find reasons for why some people are more comfortable with it that others, and I should just understand that it's one of those things everyone needs their own time to deal with (or indeed just be thankful that I have friends.)
I'm thinking this is only going through my mind because of my cutting disappointment over Christmas, where my mother asked me if I could be *oldname* for the weekend, ruining the whole event for me and my brothers, and creating a horrible wounded atmosphere among the family.
One thing that helped me deal with this rejection was my inability to do so, mentally and physically. There was something weirdly pleasing about being unable to hide my chest when my mother asked me to be her son, which partly redeemed me after my shameful complicity with her request.

This will take time.
This will take time.

not transgender, bi. i'm totally open to all lgbt related things, just have a huge curiosity. my friend want's to see what she looks like with out breasts and see what she looks like as a boy and all of that which is totally normal. i'm just wondering, she specifically told me she wants to dress as a little boy. like, a kid. and that really confuses me. i'm really interested in this sort of thing and when i asked her why she said she didn't know. i'm a bit of a psychology junkie and my curiosity is killing me. just want to clarify that i'm not judging. do any of you have the same desires as her, with the little boy thing?

[Crossposted to transgender and genderqueer]

Are there any T* Cypriots reading this community who can give me some clues what to expect as a conspicuously trans/genderqueer person visiting Cyprus? (I'll probably be sticking to the Greek areas, but clues regarding the Turkish-controlled part of Cyprus are welcome just in case I do any sightseeing there too.)

And maybe some relevant Greek words I'd better know that won't be in a normal tourist phrasebook?

I don't know if anyone will be able to help but mu partner is currently going to Dr. Brenda Berry in Orlando for her HRT (mtf) and neither her nor I are satisfied with her at all.

I was wondering if I could get the input of some of the people here. I recently applied to some graduate programs and the schools told me my information is very similar to a previous applicant from when I applied as an undergrad, pre-transition, 7 years ago (I never attended the schools though). I am not sure if I should tell them it is my old information (outing me to schools admission dept.), or if I should lie and tell them I have a twin brother. If I tell the truth it opens me up to discrimination but if I lie it could really hurt me if I get caught, although I am not sure if there is a huge chance of that.

Just wondering if anyone could share their opinions or experiences.